sailing

i was thinking maybe i could finish my novels ( those are some reread-books anyway.) tonight,but then i end of spending whole 3 hours watching the videos from "A New Brain" ( the musical i have always loved ) on youtube. i have always loved the song "I rather go sailing",if i could be on one musical,it will be this one and i want to play Gordon's boyfriend Roger so i can sing this song. How nice for Roger to love Gordon this way,and you know how it feels you could just die in one's arms. ( noooo,Gordon lives ) And right now i am repeating Hikki's "Prisoner Of Love" so i can hear the line "STAY WITH ME...STAY WITH ME...". A random thought : i always think if i want to write a diary or a note or something,i have to have a picture to go with it,it is better done by me,less better with a picture i took ( i don't have a camera anymore ),and it is the worst if i post something from the Internet. that is the reason i write so seldom. but i just found out that why not just draw a picture in 5 mins,it is not that hard,though i always tell myself it is very hard .
i wish you can understand this,that's why i am writing in english. i still can't go to bed at a time like this. i don't know how to.

run

你把煩惱試著開成一個玩笑

祈禱它就這樣變成一朵花

然後有一天可以張大嘴巴把它吃下去

反正說出來的話也反悔不得。

給點勇氣去奔跑吧，

如果跨越不過就要被壓扁了

生命本來就沒有起點也沒有終點的那樣一刻

無時無刻都要咬著牙邁開腳步唱著歌

不是說要復原就復原

也不是要出發就出發的

只是在某個當下領悟到自己已經不是自己想成為的自己

自己是自己想改變的自己

仔細想想，

我們都是活下來的那一個

話說，不管你怎樣的灑脫和留給我這一切

我都是比你會面對這個世界。

親愛的，當你這樣說的時候

我知道你一定很想他。

HBJB

x

i wish i can hide in a place where nobody can find me,
because i am not living my life here,
right now right here.
i can't start all over.

[ the first days of spring ]

The First Days of Spring - A Film By Noah And The Whale from charlie fink on Vimeo.

this is your birthday

這是你的生日。

希望你健康。

希望你的家人和好朋友健康。

希望你的貓咪健康。

希望你買給貓咪的玩具都可以撐久一點。

希望你可以試著早點睡，

臉上痘痘快點不見。

希望你繼續保持房間的整潔。

希望你不要一直亂花錢，

雖然說你都是買自己喜歡的東西，

希望你可以標到那個WDCC的花木蘭。

好吧，總之希望你存點錢。

希望你試著多學習有些責任感。

希望你有耐心些。

希望你多多真心的去關心你身邊的世界，

而不是總漠不關心。

希望你能表達出你真正的想法，

希望你開始能有些話要說。

希望你一直畫圖。

希望你心裡的故事可以茁壯。

希望你繼續創造更多美好的回憶。

希望你成熟。

希望你多看點書。

希望你多聽進去一點你BFF的意見。

希望你騎機車的時候小心一點。

希望你少聽一點悲傷的歌。

希望你能開始明白愛不是那麼簡單的東西。

希望你瞭解這生活不是一個童話故事。

希望你能學會怎麼去放手。

希望你總是記得平凡的快樂。

希望你不要遺忘初衷。

希望你帶著一顆受過傷的心，還是可以重新開始。

希望你不要去擔憂做過的決定，心碎一點點沒有關係。

希望你不要後悔自己曾經的努力和付出。

希望你知道你愛過也被愛過。

希望你不需要誰來給你肯定誰來給你答案。

希望是你把你自己拯救。

希望你不要再難過。

希望你有一天可以被明白，被記得，也被想念。

希望你繼續相信。

希望你一直保持你純純的容顏。

希望你臉上永遠有那天一樣的笑容。

you make my dream come true

新床單，新書架，新的空氣清淨機濾紙，我想最後還是要說一些感謝的話。

好像又能重新開始感覺到很平凡的感覺，因為一切終於結束了。

可是如果不是因為那樣，我也不會擁有很美好的回憶。

我不會再抱怨了，改變不了的事情，結果都是出自於自己的選擇。

我的確是那樣啊，但是每一個人都只是在承受自己所能承受的而已。

哈哈哈然後我瞭解了你的哲學，要跟著生活的節奏走，go with the flow.

然後我明白了，享受生命帶給你的一切驚喜和考驗，時間會證明和解釋一切。

最終，生命沒有把我們湊在一起，什麼都沒有。

YEAH I GOT IT. LIFE DOESN'T LEAD ME TO YOU OR LEAD YOU TO ME.

原來還是可以放下來的，誰想得到？

and by the way happy birthday to me

長恨歌 [ Song Of Endless Sorrow ] Part 5

於是軍隊再度地出發了，一路上黃沙滾滾來到了南方。
貴妃被處死的消息傳來，讓皇帝悲痛欲絕。
念念不忘心愛的貴妃和曾經快樂的時光，
儘管南方山巒的景色再美，月色再皎潔
也似乎都像籠罩在一片哀傷之中。

不久後，戰事漸漸被平息了。
皇帝一行人和軍隊返回京城。
就在那個貴妃被脫離處死的山坡上，
如今卻空無一物。

再也見不到歌舞昇平那時美麗的身影，
只有夕陽的餘暉紅的像是灑在山坡上的血。

Once again the army set off,
along with the yellow sand rolling in the wind they arrived the south.
the emperor heard about that his dearest princess has been executed,
couldn't seem to forget the happy time together,
no matter how beautiful the scenery were
in his eyes he only saw gray color and sorrow.

Shortly after,the war was put down gradually.
they went back to the palace
on the way back
they passed the hillside
where the princess and the emperor were forced to be parted
but could see nothing there.

There was her beautiful shadow and smile no more
only the ray of sunset.
the color was so red that
it looked like her blood was sprinked on the lonely hillside.
(to be continue.)


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just words

been there and done that
but i miss you most.

( in WONDERLAND )

今天郵差叔叔準時的送來了從日本的包裹，在客廳一邊看著夏卡爾大部頭書耐心等待著的我興奮地接過年度最佳購物（哈哈）..... Tove Jansson所畫插圖的愛麗絲夢遊仙境！ 我一開始以為Janson除了moomina 姆米書系外就是成人小說，完全沒想到居然她也畫過許多本書的插圖！一直到最近的一本Tove Jansson Rediscovered 裡頭有一篇分析這本1966年出版的Alice，我才知道原來還有這麼驚人的作品！ 我馬上上網找到了書裡面全部的插畫，請務必到以下網站一遊，裡面還有Jansson幫哈比人歷險記的珍貴插畫歐！

http://www.zepe.de/tjillu/alice/index.html

這樣一本夢幻的書，已經絕版四十多年，在amazon上有人開價兩百美金一本！不過我更努力的搜尋，bingo！也只有超愛Tove Jansson的日本能挖出這樣的寶藏再重新出版。書衣上的標題是，我要保護的愛麗絲。四十年來首次公開，朵貝楊笙 夢幻的愛麗絲。值得一提的是，這並不是一本繪本歐，而是Lewis Carroll的原著翻譯，再搭上整本的插圖，能夠收集到真的是一個美夢成真啊：D

i am soooo excited today because i got my copy of Alice in wonderland which is the one that illustrated by Tove Jansson!
this book was long gone since it's first released in 1966,i just learned about it though the book "Tove Jansson Rediscovered" . And i was very surprised that Japan rereleased it in 2006! so needless to say i ordered it right away and it came in the mail this morning ! such a dream book to me and it is like a dream come true :) i am very very happy now :)

雖然我看不懂日文，不過最近也剛好讀完英文版的原著，（剛好tim burton電影也快上映了，三月真是一個alice之月。）我真的很推薦Barnes&Noble 的這個版本，完整的兩版原著和插圖之外，還有很多額外的作者生平，評論，延伸閱讀，整本書的精裝的質感非常好，更重要的是價格卻非常便宜。讀了原著才發現迪士尼是怎麼改編的，原著的英文也相當輕易近人和有意思。仔細想想大家都知道愛麗絲夢遊仙境，但是現在這個年代有誰真正好好把原著讀過一次呢？

Tove Jansson's version is in japanese which i don't understand. but i happened to be reading the original book lately! i really recommend this Barnes&Noble edition,i am sure this is the best version of the original books now .especially with a very very good price. i have finished this book the other day and i was very surprised the language is really easy and witty! think about it,nowadays everybody knows about Alice In Wonderland especially because of Tim Burton's film is going to be released soon,but have you really read Alice In Wonderland for once?