2.10.2010

( plastic bags )

因為我本來就是一個愛物的人,所以這些年來收集了很多東西。Jeffrey Fulvimari的插畫商品,喜歡的電影的雙碟版dvd,彼得兔的立體書。 又想是因為個性使然,很喜歡東西嶄新的模樣,於是越是心愛的物品越是保護,除了第一次細細觀看的時候,要小心自己的指紋不要留在碟片或書皮上,連呼氣都不敢太大力。最後還要用一個特別去買的塑膠袋套起來封起來。好像是一個神聖儀式一般只有在這個時候才會覺得自己已經擁有這樣物品了,簡直是一個癖。

也因為如此,有好多的書,電影,玩具都在都還保持著如同當天購買一般嶄新的狀況。有時候想到了,拿出來隔著沾著灰塵的塑膠套,其實想要瞧一瞧,但是往往會因為想到要"重新封套"的麻煩,就會想,算了,等等好了。等有一天什麼都準備好了,心情對了房間乾淨的天氣好的閒暇時間有了,我再來好好的享受它們的美妙。

那一天從來都沒有來過。

結果被自己保護的最週到的,反而是最生疏的,還不如擱在架上沒事就會拿出來翻的一本爛雜誌,花在它的時間上一遍又遍。反觀自己最心愛的,其實心中是想要每天都在一起的一次又一次熟悉它的美好,卻因為心想好好保存而被刻意保持距離。有的時候會想到我擁有它,想著它是乾乾淨淨的而我在等待著那一天來到而自我感覺良好。而有的比較不幸的是我還沒好好喜歡它之前,就對它失去興趣了被我忘記了,只好開心因為它的嶄新狀態拿去拍賣還能喊到好價格。

因為最近買很多書,想把這些書重新整理,於是想把以前收集的插畫書等等也一起拿出來可以常常拿出來欣賞研究一番,也不是說我忽然覺得要掙脫什麼或想讓自己不拘小節不要在意書本會泛黃會變舊CD殼會刮到等等,都不是。我就是忽然覺得這些塑膠套好惱人。我連看個想看的書都還要從塑膠套裡拿出來,排在書架上那模樣也醜死了。我就一股腦,把那些塑膠套給全拆了。真覺得這種保持完美的塑膠套真是讓我神經衰弱緊張崩潰,我也該過了有這些堅持的年紀了。不要去找不存在的完美或是深怕自己弄髒弄壞了什麼自己心愛的東西,畢竟我已經擁有它了不是嗎?是要為了那一位下一個擁有者耳提面命自己要好好負起保管的責任呢?它們都是我的,而且因為是我心愛的,我永遠都不想要給別人的啊。

親愛的讀者,你也有塑膠套嗎?把它們撕掉吧。

I am not ashamed to say that actually i am a nerd, all these years i have been collecting the things i like,such as beautiful picture books,two disc special edition DVDs,collectible toys..etc. because i cared about and loved them very much,so i was always very careful with them.usually after every first watch or read,i had to be careful not to leave my fingerprints on the disc or the book cover.and i used a new and shinny plastic bag that i bought to wrap them so i could keep the mint condition. then,i felt i actually "own" this stuff.

As a matter of fact i love them so much that i want to read it everyday and watch it all the time or be with it every moment,but because it is so precious to me i think,ok, well ,i will just save it for a better day when i have a better mood and perfect timing and nice weather then i can truly enjoy it again. so sometimes i enjoy "looking at my stuff though the dusted plastic bag " and imagine the near mint item inside. but to avoid the troubles of getting it out and putting it back in the bag again,i just let them stay there ( i am still waiting for the perfect day to enjoy it anyway.) and feel good about owning them.

But that kind of day never came.

The thing i love and protect so well became the thing i keep distance with. i think i read the lousy magazine that has always been on my shelf a lot more,i actaully rather waste my time on those things i don't really care for than spenting time on the things i want to enjoy over and over again. and i was stopped by what,my own mysophobia or perfectionism or these stupid plastic bags!!? and sometimes it was so sad,i even lost my interests in them while they were also still waiting for the perfect day to be taken out ,the only good thing to think of this is when i auctioned them off they usually sold for a good price because they were still like brand new.

Today when i was organizing my bookshelf , it's not because i finally realize the true meaning to enjoy life or understand how to let go or whatever...i simply just thought these plastic bags were annoying me to no end,so i tear them all and let all my precious collectible books ( some for almost ten years) exposed to the humid air and i put them back to the shelf bare and plan to browse them as much as i can from now on,because i always wanted to do that! i am not going to looking for perfection that doesn't excist anymore. i own them don't i ? i am not keeping it clean and perfect for their next owner,they are mine and will always be mine,because i LOVE my stuff!

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ear reader,do you have those kind of plastic bags like me? get rid of them right now!


my brother is back from the trip to japan today and got me these cool stuffs! ( i collect disney's beauty and the beast stuff ),and NO plastic bags for these,they all go into my big plastic boxes for safty storage. lol

2 comments:

  1. Anonymous10/2/10 15:30

    yes,enjoy the collections you have!

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  2. yeah i totally will !

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